A little less than five years ago I was in the midst of a spiritual storm, I had a direct and immediate experience with Brigit that rearranged my life both in permanent and temporary ways. For weeks, my senses were wide open, so much so that I was infected by emotional states around me. Brigit was a constant presence behind my right shoulder. It was impossible for me to be judgmental. I saw clearly that every being was really doing the best they could. For weeks I lived in this heart of compassion, psychically on fire.
Two weeks into this, I received an email to report for a random polygraph, something that I had successfully avoided for 11 years of my career in the intelligence community (administrative, no cloaks and daggers). After four hours answering the same questions posed in different ways I began to get this crazy idea that this was Brigit's way of moving me on to my next career. And so, I prayed to Her and put it in her hands, pointing out that I had a son in high school and this may not be the best time for a change.
Within one minute, the polygrapher told me that I had passed and I was done. I called all the relevant people and went home fairly shaken by the experience.
Over time the heart of compassion faded along with the extra sensitivities and clairvoyance. But in the back of my mind, I knew that in five years time, something would change and it would likely be me. Fast forward to August of 2012 and we found out that we were not successful in a contract recompete. There were mini contract extensions, but it was clear that the end was near. I did not seek employment with another company and I walked out the door on December 20th. I've spent the last weeks with my son on his final college break.
At this point, I am waiting for signs and omens .Perhaps they will lead to a calling as a healer or it may just be that I'll end up helping people in small ways. Imbolg tide is beginning its pull (flocks of robins in January!) and I am remaining open to potential.